A part of the journey
I don’t feel like reposting this very long message board post here on my blog, but I recently shared my frustration with “listening to God.”
Life for Rent
Sometimes I feel a lot like the new Dido song, Life for Rent.
“If my life is for rent, and I don’t, want, to buy. I deserve nothing more than I get, because nothing I have is truly mine.”
I desire to lay down roots in the Venice community. But just when I think I have been, the people I am connected to start drifting away further and further. It has made me wonder how anyone can lay down roots in transient southern California.
Then there is the question of geography. Can ‘laying down roots’ only be done in a geographical setting? I am building relationships with persons online who I have spent very little face-time with. And others with whom I have yet to meet “in the flesh.” Can this be considered laying down roots? Some would say yes, I haven’t bought into that completely just yet.
Why is it important to lay down roots? I believe that most human beings cannot be significantly transformed without deeply committed relationships. The human purpose has always found meaning in relationships with others. We are not meant to be isolated individuals, we are meant for connection.
This connection is not intended to be a “whoever fits the bill at the time” kind of relational network. Certainly, many will come and go no matter how you live your life. People die, move, change jobs, get sick, are called away by familial needs… but maybe the normative plan is for human beings to develop solid and intimate relationships with those persons who are consistently in our lives.
Perhaps I will put some more thought into this later… for now, I want to veg out and watch TV. I am depressing myself.
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April 17th, 2005